I’m So Tired.

I’m so tired.

I’m exhausted physically and mentally. I need to be locked away in a small room, with any and all responsibilities or obligations removed from me and zero contact with the world. Time to rest. An opportunity to try and feel better so I have a better chance at facing the world. I can’t keep this up much longer.

I don’t know what to do. I’ve been on a downward spiral since I was about 10, which was when I first started to realise that I was different and that life was always going to be a battle for me. There have been a few brief climbs, but ultimately, it’s always a case of one step forward, two steps back. It’s a miracle that I’m still here. If I were anyone else, I’d be furious at how I have been left to suffer for so long. How much longer can I keep on maintaining the status quo? There is little time left; I can feel it. Someday soon, something will push me too far, and I will break beyond repair.