I’ve needed an outlet to vent my frustrations and write about my feelings on various subjects for a while now. There’s only so much you can say in a 140 character tweet. Every time I manage to condense my thoughts to that limit, it feels like an achievement.
I’ve had blogs in the past. I had a LiveJournal back in the early 2000s, chronicling the adventures of my 12-year-old self. I’m sure it was a thrilling read..! I also ran a blog in 2011 which I called my “Dreamscape” – where I was archiving the events of the weird dreams I was having. Eventually, I succumbed to the personal pressure I put on myself to write regularly and gave up. I’m not good with pressure. Not the kind of pressure where you end up working better because of it – the kind where you set yourself a goal and if you don’t reach that goal then you instantly feel useless. If you know me personally then you’ll know I have always had difficulties with confidence – largely thanks to a lifetime of being told I wasn’t good enough; eventually, you start to believe what you’re told, no matter how much family, friends and therapists tell you it’s not the case. So yeah, I’m not setting myself any goals with this one – it’s going to co-exist alongside my Twitter account which has been my venting arena for the past 4 or 5 years or so.
I am quite opinionated and in the past it has bitten me in the arse. People frequently tell me to stand up for myself more, to speak out for what I believe in – so I do! I amp myself up and have my say, and somehow always end up coming out of it the bad guy. I’ve been learning to filter out a lot of the people that made me feel this way and have been much happier for it.
Hopefully, I haven’t bored you to death already. I do so hope you get something from my musings – be it to prompt a discussion, the opportunity to re-evaluate each others’ opinions or simply for that warm fuzzy feeling. I’m quite open-minded, so even if we massively disagree I’m usually still interested in discussing things. Don’t be afraid to say hello!